19.7.03
Happy birthday jasmine!~
for some reason, many things have gone unexplained and perhaps there arent any explanations in the very first place. things have taken a different turn and have gone kinda awry, and i apologise for whatever misunderstandings or bad feelings that have surfaced as a result. it's bugging me a lot, seriously, but i know i'll never know the true story behind everything. i hate the feeling of being ignored or cast away, esp by you. im really sorry, to both parties concerned, but whether things will patch up, it's on your part now. cos i've decided to let things ebb away.
going to the arcade later. to have some fun and rid all my frustration, anger, stress and whatever 'destructive passions'.
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slept for a total of 3 hours. -_- accumulated lethargy from the weekdays. the result of staying back everyday and having way too much work. stayed back with dearie today. laughed like nuts, couldnt help it. esp when fish opened the clsrm door all of a sudden. hhahah..was so difficult to curb my 'excitement'. think this is going to go on everytime both of us meet fish around, we'll just break into hysterical laughter after fish disappears outta the scene. erbx.
jay's nx album is going to be released soon. as expected, sis is eagerly anticipating it. has already got the newly released song's mp3, which has, so far, only been aired on one radio statn...which is of cos, dearest 93.3. she even cut out the little newspaper article abt the date of release. and guess what happened when she told dad abt the album...he asked if she could borrow from her frenz....like wth....she felt so spastic. her dearest idol and he'd prefer her not to get the album. like what?! but he should yield in time to come...with some persuasion and cajoling.
two sec 1s turned up for guides today. when they're not supposed to come. aiks. felt so bad having to ask them to go back. kinda pitiful...coming all the way to sch and they were actually sitting there studying for their testwork so dilligently. but it's not our fault anyway...since they didnt go check the webpage or find out from the rest. had to wear full u for the sake of having the promo ceremony for the sec 2s and 3s. quite silly cos the whole time all i had to do was stand there and melt in the heat [though it was just after a heavy storm, it was sweltering], in other words just being a statue. but i guess i wont have many opportunities like these in future, so i'd better appreciate it. and i wont have many chances to wear the guide u soon too. :( talking abt guides, they have this whole series of international camps and the places are so blardee attractive? first on the list was New Zealand. was like "WHAT?!?! I WANT!"....then followed by places like finland, scotland, france, chille [i think] blah blah blah. can you just imagine going for camps in such beautiful places? it's going to be so different from a holiday. omigod. but then again, wont even consider applying. cos i wont make the mark...haha. accdg to gal, ppl going have to have the qualifications of a real guide...representing s'pore and all that. k lor...i cant do gadgets for nuts. that's one thing. other than that, the camps are held nx year...the interest would have dwindled by then. *shrugz* wanted to go for one last year but was disappointed by the fact that there was insufficient applicants. i STILL remember....cos i was dying for kayaking esp after the recent OBS last year. ah..such things are so trivial actually.
*yawnz* yikes! why am i yawning after having slept so much?!
two more weeks and dad's home...hopefully can go to the airport to pick him up. heheh...and BK, here i come...
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18.7.03
cant believe im missing guy company, as in, to chat with online. this is so strange... =| cant believe im actually hoping for ken to come online soon. hoping that he'll come back from tuition soon. eekx. what on earth's happening?! muz be thanks to fish. my attn's being diverted away to the opp gender temporarily.
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the doorbell rang and mum asked me to check it out. so i did. and i saw two girls and one of them said they were doing an ipw proj and wanted to ask me some qns for their survey. was like...okay lor...then onli after asking halfway did i realise that there were like three other girls?! they were like hidden behind the 'mailbox pillar'...weirdos...and they popped their heads out to take occasional glances at me. felt pretty uncomfortable. and their qns kinda reminded me of the entrepreneur market survey we did...haha...going ard asking ppl the dumbest qns in the world. for the girls, they were making some sorta game which was sth like cluedo and life. was like..."what?" when they asked me if i would play. i mean...i dont haf any idea how the game's going to be like, there isnt even a rough idea...so.wth..i just said yes.
got this abrasion thks to our dearest viceprincipal. haix. knocked into the 'stone bench' in an attempt to run away from him. cos my shirt was out and im freaked out by his stares. idiotic man. reminds me of how daph went to stand beside him in order to gauge his height..she looked so pathetic. hurhur.
this weekend's hw is worse than the previous'. haha. thks to accumulated overdue hw. have a total of 12 items to complete. and i suppose i'll onli do half aniwae. hehx.
tricked yash to believing that ive been dieting all along, skipping dinner etc etc. hehe..and she believed. so happy..haha...it's rare that im successful at tricking ppl. ;) sorry though, yash, if i made u worried....but u didnt seem worried at all so wth.. haha.
oh..xielangping start already. ciao~
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17.7.03
[the grasshoppers] ;)
the phy lesson was pretty good..i kinda benefitted more in that one and a half hr than in a couple of normal phy periods together...yay! so happy. and dearest yash, abt what you said in your blog...i've got the answer to it. it's written in our diary. and it's the darkest secret i've ever kept k? so just keep it to yourself. and DONT EVER talk abt it openly. save me the embarrassment pls. takes me a lot of courage to admit it kiex.....*sigh* thought i could keep it to myself till i left crescent at least.
laughed like some shit today again. our jokes are getting more and more spastic. esp what daph said abt being cool....omigod, really almost made me spit out the milo. it's totally ridiculous. muahaha.
kinda looking forward to the quilt-making..haha...since i dont have to do any sewing!! thanks dearie! :D heheh...whoa, this is the best bargain man. all i haf to do is draw the triangles and squares and dearie will help me sew, hehe. but of cos, i'll still try my best to sew la..i mean, it's a good opportunity to learn? hahah. oh man....such a retard. and as i told dearie, my hands are meant for holding pens onli.... :)
sometimes i feel that you're insensitive. and perhaps u think too highly of yourself, but that doesnt give u the right to criticise others. what you do may not always necessarily be right. just quit it okay?
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15.7.03
my eyelids are so heavy but i just refuse to go to bed until i've blogged. haha. stubborn old fool. took a half hr break when i came back, just couldnt take it anymore, just dropped onto the sofa and dozed off. and yet here i am resisting the temptation of sleep, knowing so well how much it is required before it takes a toll on my health. a weak constitution is always so prone to little little fluctuations in diet and lifestyle.
laughed a great deal today. somehow everything around appeared doubly funny. :) hey dearie, thanks so much for your special arrangement for the cheer cum song cum dunno what else you want. but im realli sorry, i have no intention to execute your plan, hahaha. prince escalus just rox. ;)
overheard someone's conversation during recess today. it goes sth like this..."i think everyone lives in a lie"....and i thought it really weird for ppl to be talking abt such topics during recess time?! and what if it's a routine and such grave thoughts are being expressed day in and day out? rather depressing dont u think? i cant imagine myself saying all these in sch during recess. it's just pretty strange. in my opinion, such stuff are more suited to be talked about in blogs...in written words....it's just more apt this way.
the flower kinda withered already. so sad. and it's only tuesday. *sigh* i shouldnt have prepared it so early. but then again, i've come up with another idea..maybe it'll work better. hehehex. and i really have gek ling to thank this time. hmmmz..seems like im indebted to her in so many ways lately...ystday was the safety pin for my stupid falling skirt. oh..that reminds me of the patchwork blanket CIP. sewing....how dreadful can that be. i'd rather cook than sew. goodness...and yes dearie, i'll bring handiplasts on saturday. but then again, i dont think i'll need them eventually. :p
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14.7.03
today's been a great day...cos i managed to keep my good mood throughout, heh. quite hyperactive today also. :) found out sth today..or rather, i did some detective work and intelligent analysis..hahah...of cos not forgetting to thank the various witnesses who provided relatively useful evidence to support my speculations. ;) it's confirmed. yay!
was reminiscing with daph on the way home today. quite funky...looked back in the past and all the beautiful memories..*beams*.
there's unseen poem test tmr...somehow im quite happy that there is a lit test..haha. dont know why. guess its because im happy that it isnt koc or rnj...i just wish that all lit exams would just be unseen, sth like english? whoa. i'll just love it man. no need to study and prepare so much. :)
the bulb's blown and requires changing. the problem is....theres no dad around to fix it. no one else knows a thing about fixing lights and electricity. mum fears getting electrocuted. mum's soln: use torches till dad returns. omigoodness...the vulnerability of women again. thank goodness the light isnt exactly a very important one...it's not the one near the comp, heh. it can wait.
nth much to say, wanna go sleep soon...am so lazy to finish hw. i want to read harry potter so much, just finish the book and forget abt it but with the perpetually increasing workload, seems like the most i can read each time is a chapter or two. when will i ever get to finish it...*sigh*.
gdnite to all the world's darling angels and sweet dreams~ :D
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13.7.03
am so crushed by the mountainous pile of homework. maths [statistics and vectors combined is a total disaster] threw me into a huge dizzy spell and i forced myself into a nap and now, im not feeling any better. wth. there's a whole load of undone work, will try my best to finish tmr. but then again, there's that cooperative chem thingy....
was telling mum abt my dizzy spells. she says it may have been inherited from her right....and i dont know what that illness is called...starts with T..whatever...then i thought of the heredity chapter...haah..and said, "but maybe it wasnt in the sex gametes right?" and she was like, "wow"..hahah. wth.
to dearie, running away is the easiest way out but it's definitely not the best. i guess it's only used when you're really desperate...and you're like really exhausted and your mind just blanks off, leaving you totally drained and unwilling to search for a solution. but dont worry ya, u'll be fine. ;) i'll help you get things through, heheh, even though im not exactly much better an optimist than you are. and i've also just taken a liking to being an escapist. *sigh* dont get too frustrated yeah? we've more important things to handle this year....like the big O...so you should not allow your energy to seep away just yet. ;) luv ya lots~
rightfully, i am not supposed to be blogging. supposed to be checking the phy tys qns. but wth....ive been doing work for the whole afternoon and i deserve a break, heh. oh no...the chocs are causing a sore throat. going back to work now...dearest cathode ray, here i come...gdnite~
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